You touched on a very important part Brother, that this hobby should be a reward or a treat. Visiting MPA’s or SP’s should be fun and a fantasy, it’s not a replacement for a real relationship. If visiting an MPA or SP makes you feel good about yourself or gives the illusion you’re in a relationship, then more work needs to be done internally, and fix the void that’s trying to be filled. I think it’s great you workout and meditate, great way to clear your head and really be in tune with your mind and body. I also appreciate everyone sharing their “health is wealth” stories, sometimes we don’t appreciate what we have until it’s no longer there. I have also struggled to maintain a healthy lifestyle, but once you find something that you enjoy, the rest falls into place. The best investment we can make is into ourselves.
Side note, have a blast in Europe!